Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Are you truly listening?

By: Tony L. Jefferson, Jr.

No one can understand your pain or comfort, your sorrow

They'll never understand your struggle

Preconceived misconceptions of stereotypes thrust upon you

Holier than though antagonist that constantly judge you

Forgetting that only God can judge me or you, or anyone

Your money, your ego, your pride and your selfishness will die in the grave you yourself dug

Try to love and understand, not judge and pretend

Cause the struggle someone is painted with can't be truly explained plainly

They will fall to temptation, pray for a better day and do everything they can to feel

But until the world can turn their ear to you, they'll never truly understand your pain

So loose lips sink ships and closed mouths don’t get fed

Contradicting the very art form of listening, now they are just assuming

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

What you know about Love?

By: Tony L. Jefferson, Jr.

What you know about love?

That timeless emotion we fail to understand

So we replace it with lust and force love

Love can’t be forced but it can be taught

Not in school books but in thoughts

Thoughts turned to actions

Actions not mimicking your sensual being but being you physically being there

There to turn the cattle from sheep to shepherd

Lead your flock into the light because light reveals the love hidden in the darkness

The recesses of the mind left blind by long standing blocks of consciousness

What you know about love?

That beautiful escape only found when we abandon ourselves and become one with another


Thursday, April 3, 2014

Menace II Parenthood

By: Tony L. Jefferson, Jr.

Growing up, I didn’t have my biological father, like many children growing up in impoverished America either you had just your mom or a real man took up the charge of raising you. I was blessed to have a man do that in my life and I am forever grateful to God for sending this man, Ernie Weathers to be that man. As I grew in age I always wondered about my bio father, he would always flatter me with lies like “Daddy Loves ya” and “I’ll be coming to visit you soon”. I believed this man for years, believed by virtue of him being my father he’d automatically love me and want to love me. I’ve always had memories of the horrible past he left in my mind, beating my mother and often times putting me in danger because some drug had him thinking bold.

Why did I believe in the words of a man? As a child you want to believe that you’re loved by everyone, you want to believe that life isn’t as bogus as you learn it to be as an adult. The day I realized my bio father wasn’t shit was the day my life changed forever. Till this day at the age of 28, I am affected by the stigma of being anything like my father; I tried my best with my own children to be the best father I can possibly be. Sometimes I fuck up, mess up and totally fail at being the father I know I can be, but the fact that I still try and haven’t given up makes me feel great! It’s hard being the father to daughters, but I refuse to give up on them because it’s easy.

My father gave up on me because it was easy, it was easy to go to prison and protect you butthole, rather than raise your future! I use to hate my father after my revelation; I use to despise having the same name as this man having the same blood, having a piece of this man’s soul inside of me. As I grew older I realized I had to forgive him to truly free myself, I didn’t forgive him for him I forgave him in God’s name! This isn’t a rebuke against absentee fathers, some don’t truly have a choice and we should try to empower those fathers and thaw the frost covering the heart of their child’s mother. My father on the other had had multiple opportunities and several years of chances to truly know me and love me for me, but he failed to do that and I am forever left with the pain of that.

God always has a plan and going through this has made me a much better father as I am reminded of the pain of my father not being there. I always within reason try to be there as much as I can for my daughter Olivia and for my step daughter Sariah. Her dad reminds me of my painful past without mine and I want her to always have a father figure as my step provided for me! Ladies, if that child’s father is genuinely trying and the only bad thing that’s ever happened is your relationship not working, than give him the blessing of seeing his children it will make things much easier in the future. If that man is indeed a terrible person and wants nothing to do with their child, let God deal with them accordingly, because as my father has suffered tremendously from his misgivings so will they.

Last year he wanted to see his granddaughter and I being the bigger man wanted her to at least know who he was and when she’s older I’ll explain him to her. The trend will not continue and fathers are just as important as mothers. Love doesn’t have titles it is just shown and accepted with a willing and open heart. Love you children they are your future and essentially who you will be remembered by sometime in the future. Release upon society help and not hindrance!

Monday, March 31, 2014

Pleasure Principle

By: Tony L. Jefferson, Jr.

I met a woman who rocked my world

Showed me things girls couldn’t

She teased my senses stimulating my pretenses

Gyrating bodies dripping hot with the sweat of hot sessions

Sessions spent in our secret place, under the stars the whole world our stage

Stimulation coupled with orgasms tripled with deep fathoms

My love is extended, past the point of pleasure, past the point of no return

Warm actions please your throbbing sensations moisturizing your inhibitions

Give your all to me and I give my all to you

As we should in this intimate setting

Let our hearts guide us and our flesh overtake us

Let our bodies fuse in harmonious blues

As we take on selfishly our pleasurable thoughts

Manifested into sensual bouts of physicality

Sex with you is magical and spontaneous

Love with you is forever and permanent

Let our love shine as we orgasm into the next realm of consciousness

I love the skin were in when we’re doing what makes us feel human

Essentially human

Pleasure presuming

Sex with you is amazing and inhumAN

Friday, March 28, 2014

The Fallacy of Liberals and Conservatives

By: Tony L. Jefferson, Jr.

The fallacy of Liberals and Conservatives, humans sure like labeling things and that's ok. Thing is when you settle for two ideologies because you're told to or you feel you have no other choice you're just following a trend. A politician is but an activist who’s lost his way and while they get on media outlets pandering for votes, they are not speaking in their own voice. They are but talking heads for this ideology that spread like wildfire through the nation. Why can’t we see through the fallacy these two sides keep pushing?

First we’re all human and essentially all Americans in this nation. A conservative gets on a media outlet and tells you to hate certain things or people and all of a sudden something you haven’t really given any thought to becomes an issue. You start protesting, making political rants and becoming more and more irrational and then a liberal politician gets on a different media outlet and says screw what those guys think we should love those things and people and hate these things and these people. Now we have a divide created from God knows what because now we’ve debated so many talking points and lies and become so irrational in our thinking we don’t remember our own true values, because now we’ve adopted a slogan given to a politician by some rich guy with a wet dream.

Friends and families are now enemies, our children hate each other and fight over things that they shouldn’t. We kill each other over lies and stereotypes that someone told you existed. You are being controlled like a pawn in a big game of chess, have you noticed that no matter who occupies the presidency, senate, house, governor’s office, city council or office of mayor, things pretty much stay the same. Sure you’ll get a slightly different version of the original lies but the status quo remains the same. We’re still going to get into conflicts with other countries, the poor, middle class and rich will still occupy the same percentages that they operate, we’ll still worry about our energy future just in slightly different ways, and you’ll be the same person you were the day before and after an election. We’ve forgotten who we are as a country because we listened and applied lies and stereotypes that aren’t our own to our daily lives. A liberal and a conservative aren’t helping your life or benefiting you in any way, they tell you things to stir up your emotions and hate the very person that can help you. As long as the country is divided we can’t come together to solve real problems and discuss real solutions.

Division makes us weaker and the perceived enemies (other Countries) will eventually exploit it as we’ve done with them. We haven’t lost our way because we failed to implement a conservative or liberal policy; we lost our way pretending that we are liberal and conservative. We’re Americans a diverse people that in rough times pulled together and made things happen. We’ve backtracked so far in logic we’re union, confederate and Wild West states again. Of course we’ll never agree on the talking points and lies presented to us by the media by way of politicians, because they are essentially lies and when can you agree with a lie…NEVER!!!

Stop bickering over ignorance and lies that is distracting you from who you truly are. Open your eyes and realize the power lies in your hands, but if we’re divided we’ve lost the power. You’re not a liberal or a conservative, you’re an American it’s time to remember that.

Thursday, March 27, 2014

The Misconception of Racism

By: Tony L. Jefferson, Jr.

The misconception of racism is that we have to stop people from using the N-word or any other derogatory term. That doesn't stop racism and only means you're focusing on the wrong thing. Racism is political, institutional, educational and ingrained into the very fabric of this nation. Combating racism is tearing down age old walls, not giving anything not deserved but providing the opportunity to succeed with no strings attached. The opportunity to the same quality education but not one catered to any one group.

Job opportunities that are not based on a quota, but truly based on my skills as if you'd never met me. Many times people have been qualified for a job only to be turned down because of personal bias. Racism isn't the N-word, sexism isn't man against woman, it's the fact that it's the focus of an opportunity rightfully attained but lost because of this simplistic worldview. It's not racism to teach my children their history before slavery.

Its racism if I have the financial and political clout to bar you from doing something based on who or what I think you are. It's racism to teach only one part of the human experience favorably. It's racism to divert the focus from actual issues affecting communities to something as petty as words. Words are but thoughts spoken, the goal isn't to change the words it's to change the thoughts of hatred and in essence the words themselves will change as well.

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Before I was anything I was Black

By: Tony L. Jefferson, Jr.
Before I was anything else in the world I was
As the night sky shining beautiful adorned with stars
Melanin infused former King reduced to servitude but still having the soul of nobility
Trying to fight injustice against the race while at the same time trying to keep our race from hating themselves
It’s not a badge of shame, it’s who we were before anything about us was known
Before I was born the only thing known about us is we will be black
Before I was male or female, Jew or gentile, Christian or Islamic, democrat or republican, gay or straight, right or left, good or bad, cute, sexy or any other identifying ways of humans, I was
I wear it with pride, proud of the skin I’m in, proud of the path we’ve carved, braving steadfast the road ahead
When will we be truly free or will we continue to be slaves
Slaves to media, slaves to fashion, slaves to corporations and politicians not contributing to our community building
Financing institutions we bred, who no longer break bread with us
Wake up to a new day, because no matter what you do in this world before you enter and when you exit you can either be proud or shame, but you’ll always be